this is like the equivalent of someone not talking for a week and then talking for 5 hours straight.11.apr.25

also it's my site's 2 year anniversary today!

today marks 2 years of sharing and building my personal site on the interwebs! i honestly find this place pretty incredible. i did all of this by myself! it is something i am pretty proud of. i don't really have anything special planned for today though. i've already expressed many times how dearly my site is to me. will probaly write a blog post about it at some point. but anyways, today i have a bit of free time to be able to write in here for a while about what i've been up to. i should do a script where there's balloons on my homepage whenever its april 11. and talking about JavaScript!

the part where i talk about coding

i've actually been able to do more stuff with it thanks to my intro to programming class. i talked a little bit about this on my JS learning page but the class is basically about learning the fundamentals about programming using C++ as our programming language. i've been having so much fun in that class coding my assignments and having my crack at them. it's a bit hard at times but i really do love the journey of being able to write a functioning program solving a problem. and to my luck, the friend that told me that C++ is actually very similar to JS was not lying to me. i said at one point that it looked a bit scary. but actually i think it's kind of a beautiful language now. and while yes, JS and C++ share a lot of the syntaxis and other stuff, they have A LOT of unique quirks. i was actually reading up on the side a book about JS called javascript for dummies and i had to stop reading it for that reason. they are VERY similar to each other but also not. i was definitely gonna mix them up by learning these 2 languages at the same time. so the in-depth JS learning is gonna be for another time. maybe during the summer.

i think the coolest part is still being able to get these concepts learned in my class and being able to apply them in JS! i was able to write a tiny piece of code that pops up a dialog when someone wants to access my chatbox. because i didn't want to dive into JS just yet i still wanted to learn something not exactly uni related on the side so i started following this frontend developer roadmap and i've been learning so many useful little bits because of it! because while yes, i know a good amount of this stuff (at least HTML and CSS) there's still SO Many Thing that i've simply missed or haven't heard about that are SO USEFUL. for the chatbox pop-up i used an HTML tag called dialog that has it's own methods for opening it and closing it with JS. that was so helpful for what i wanted to do. i didn't have to create a seperate div, adjust the position of it, hide it from the homepage, or anything like that. it's so awesome. i mostly been going through the roadmap just before going to sleep but i really recommended to anyone who's interesting in learning more. once i get to the JS module, that's when i'll lock in. i'd love to improve the little system i have for /journal with JS.

i also want to eventually go through learning some backend stuff, and use that knowledge for my siinamota fanlisting so i can handle the members database and all that. i know old af fanlistings use PHP but like i really have no clue how they do all that. eventually i'll find out.

what i've been up to

i feel like this is mostly what i've been up to for the past 2 months. honestly, life and uni is basically consuming all of my free time. calculus is very very HARD for me so i'm always practicing whenever i can. i got two C's on the past 2 exams and all that is left to take is one more exam and the final. i hope to pass the class with a B, that would be so cool. but if not, i'll take a C. but good lord is it a lot of work for me to get decent grades in calculus. next week is spring break and im hoping to REALLY practice and practice for calculus.

and at least spend 1 day from that spring break week playing minecraft. oh, do i miss minecraft so much! i haven't been playing anything as of late either. during busy times like these i used to play a little bit during my commute time in the train but recently i found SUCH a great app for reading PDF files on my android tablet that i've just been reading school books whenever i'm bored like that. i need to find more PDFs. if anyone knows a site pls do let me know! i would love to get back to reading things once i'm done with this semester. i should do a list of all the things i'd like to do during spring break and my summer break.

steve minecraft is currently 6 months old

he is kinda HUGE now. he has so much energy oh my god he gets these insane zoomies in the morning when i wake up. like CRAZY. he gets so excited from seeing me after 8 hours of not being able to see me. and he is very PUNCTUAL. he wakes me up at 7am every day because i've been waking up at that time for uni every day of the week and he got accustomed to it. he is basically my 2nd alarm. but he only shuts up once i give him attention. despite everything he is still my baby. there was a week were he started meowing like during the night but that went away as soon as he learned that i was not opening the door for him until the morning. and honestly? while sometimes i'd like to sleep more, i think it's also nice that he kinda obligates me to get up in the morning. sticking to a good sleeping schedule thanks to my annoying ass cat i will get a harness soon so i can start taking him outside and such. he always wants to go outside so i know he will love the activity but idk how much he will love the harness. i've been watching a few videos here and there, and the trick is to just bribe them into being OK with having a harness on. give them treats around the harness, etc, etc. positive reinforcement. it will proably take a while with him given how i put him a collar once (those detachable ones) and i have NO CLUE of where in my apartment he lost it ?!?!?!? bruh...

my most recent sickening

i got sick recently and by recently i mean around march 18. man let me tell you i was FUCKED UP. the worst part was that the day after i had a CALCULUS EXAM not saying the reason why i got a C was mainly because i was sick but the pounding headache i had during the exam DID NOT HELP. my stupid ass went to go to work that weekend and i spoke too much to the point where my throat was hurting. next day i had lost my voice. and you know what? i spent an entire week with no voice because of that. whispering was the only way i could communicate to people if i really had to. and man. i regret pushing through my hurting throat for my minimum wage retail job. after a week of no talking i was slowly getting my voice back but it was really hoarse. right now my voice is pretty much back to normal but sometimes i still sound like a 12 year old. though i think the most significant change since i lost my voice is that it's really hard to sing like i used to. not that im in a choir or something. but i like singing to myself as much as the next guy. i wonder if i did some permanent damage to my vocals or something. anyways i learned my lesson. someone should come to the store and kill me if i'm ever putting my minimum wage job over my well being.

that's awesome but how have i been doing?

i'm a little bit tired ngl!!!!!! i want to take a break from math so badly but i must pull through at the end of the day. this is something i knew i was gonna have to battle with when i picked doing a computer science degree. honestly the fact that sometimes it seems like i'm not fast enough to do the exams and all that is a bit draining. but at least i can always practice and practice more.

i think besides that i've been really enjoying this semester nonetheless. i've gotten to meet and talk to new people who are also interested in what i like to do, coding! i feel like i get really self aware which makes me very embarrassed to talk to another human being ever but i've been slowly making small steps to Not Be Like That. it feels really nice when i've able to do it too. i should also probably start working on my public speaking skills. lots and lots of things to work on and improve!